the anger and frustration of the last few weeks has finally come to pass
thank god i was starting to really lose it
dawn pat and bob are now safe i wont be at the bowling alley freeking out for a while . ill just come down for a drink  like the normal happy go -lucky alcoholic i am :)
not a problem
if i even went into the events of the last 3weeks this journal would never end . so ill just give honorable mention to everything that put me at ease .  i guess we will start with reality . if things do go unfortunate at one of my jobs i think ill just take everyones advice and just get a different one and not stress it. . last week i woke up to the phone ringing and franky and patty trying to reach me to set me up with even more work . to do all the places ive been offered i need awhole new day of the week . so if one door closes i guess there are plenty more that will open .
 justin and i are not arguing anymore thank god! were best friends right and thats that....
 i ve come to terms with everything brians(themessenger) put on the table . my friendships all i offer accept it or move on . im a damn good friend and i got line of people who would swear to that ! if you cant see past our past relationship (ayear later)im sorry and i cant let you punish me for it anymore . ive given you answers closure and everything you asked for . i can give no more .
 Ive started dating again . thats it thou-just dating . i always start off calling my own shots and getting pushed into a full blown relationship when im totally not ready  and hurt in the end . those days are over i wont be pushed anymore . im dating thats it if something more happens it will be on my own terms in my own time .im over the &7NA thing (my girls and close friends know what that means) p.s. im sure my necklace is around ... neck lol
i saw maureen a few weeks ago . i had to give this honorable mention . her mom moved around the corner and she stopped in for a drink on her way home. i love moe she is such a great friend.doesnt matter how much time and distance gets between us . we always talk about all the good times we have had in the last 11yrs like it was yesterday and were always there for each other no matter how much time goes btwn visits . ill be back over for superbowl as always with a bottle of tequilla !
last but not least i was in  a minor car accident a few weeks ago but i talked to damien he reminded me that if i hadnt taken that course driver thingy then i could wait till my insurance goes up take the course and it will drop back down!bravo to damien i ll stop stressing that now
ohhhhhh and cousin pat you were right about the satelite radio thing. if i constantly leave it on the battery will stop taking the charge and willneed to be replaced . you were 100 dollars worth of correct. anyway pep boys took care of the battery and i threw the satelite out the window on my way to work / damn if you werent right bout that one . problem identified and solved !
now for the happy news ..........im going to key west for fantasy fest halloween weekend! jeanie's comingwith me!we havent had a good trip 2gether since new orleans 2003 we need this catch up time! i just wish i could of met up with her in  LA today . but she picked the one sunday monday wed im totally booked in a row!!! i totally would of gone . kenny and jenn are driving down to meet us for halloween ! my favorite bartender(zack)  awaiting my arrival as well and its been a long time since ive seen  him I can t wait . its a party .. still havent picked out my halloween costume i might just wear one of the older ones i have ... not sure yet
more happy news ... this will be my 3rd week back working at da funky phish . i really really love it there . i love all the customers the musicians the friends and especially the co-workers . its more like a party then work . i miss katy thou and i hope she knows this and comes to visit me SOON. Rob as always can make me smile and laugh .  
funky phish outting hosted by me and jay :
The Dana Fuchs Band(sade in across the universe and janis joplin off broadway play love,janis)
October, 23 2007 at Joe’s Pub
425 Lafayette St, New York, New York 10003
everyones welcome! ive seen her a few times in the city in the past and its always an awesome show!
more happy news im going to spain in april to see my grandmother for her 94th bday. i inherited a small some of 2800bux recently (a whole nother stress story in itself)  im using it to see my grandmother  and take meech with me as my translator . helps to have a best friend who can tell me what my familys saying (even if its not good )
Now for the guily part of this blog .1. i havent seen kathy and the triplets in way tooooo long . i havent talked to eiwee sarah or paul on my space or otherwise either . time to get up to buffalo as soon as possible . kathys my best friend i love her . time to go .2. ive been kinda at odds with brian (chotgun)because of his girl friend and thatsbugging me too! i got a free flight from jet blue coming so ill be up to vegas soon for brians bday! im gonna come out during the week when i will only miss a day of work weekends are too hard and he works anyway. his girl will actually have to meet me in person if she is gonna decided she hates me at least meet me first then decide all thats alot of bullshit. im gonna be honest when she meets me she is gonna love me i know this .

Now ill just start with the events past of today! i woke up to the phone ringing . dad forgot his passport and couldnt get on his ship to bermuda i had to rush his passport and his womans up to staples copy and fax it to the ship . no problem in order to do this on time i ran outta here half naked no make up and had not a second to waist so i couldnt brush my teeth . deadlines to meet to get them on the ship .  i had to cancell my lunch date wich was totally disappointing but getting them on the ship top priority. my cell phone ringing off the hook as i drive with one hand and half a brain from working late and hard and getting no sleep the night b4 uggh . i get it done they get on the ship my lunch dates not far and we met up at taras .i didnt stop home first ! i forgot i looked like adisaster till i passed a mirror but i was so delirouse from no sleep i had the couple at the table next to us  laughing i had my date laughing i was laughing so hard i had tears in my eyes and my nose was running how attractive . next time ill just wear my glasses and carry a sign that says GEEK so no one gets confused . Despite all that i got my act 2gether and made it to work at the donkey on time (totally amazing)i must of looked half decent cause i got pulled over the bar by some girl .she was cute so i made out with her any way but didnt get her name lol .. fun fun lol ...note to self STOP DRINKING jagermister . well that was the hi-lite of working 2nite because it was dead and the night never ended or i thougth it wouldnt . for all that effort i made less than a 100 bux and got home at 2am its 4am now im still awake. i m watching the movie studio 54 . the drama of club life lol i guess each has its own story . it take me a year to tell you what happened inthe lousy 8months i worked at webster hall  and a lifetime to tell you bout the 11yrs TODAY! yup today of all the days! ive worked and the shit ive seen . wouldnt trade a minute of it either . funny too cause a rep from jet blue gave me her emailthis week  for a job 11 yrs ago i was on a plane to texas interviewing for american airlines i thought i be working for gus at the village  pub  for a few weeks not 11yrs today ! now the oppertunity to do what i actually originally planned to do in the first place got put back in my hands when i was even looking exactly 11yrs later. wierd .her infos on my desk what to do next hmmmmmmmmm.
2nite i saw two people who ive been thinking about often . i wont say who ill just say it was great to see them talk to them I MISS THEM  and they gave me some great halloween tips . blood manor in manhattan seems like a must b4 i go on my trip . they said it was scary as hell  . im definatly gonna go .
more happy news ive started working out again . its motivating!
ANYWAYS i never have a boring day so i guess as stuff happens ill write about if anyones interested
if not i guess this will be more like dear diary ..ahh dont matter anyways ... stay tuned llllllllor not lol

a few things i forgot 
1. i hate the new weather going on outside . anything under 70 degrees aint for me 
2. because of the weather change im going back into vampire mode i prefer beach bunny summers 
must move to florida adventually
3. im freezing eeeeeeeeeeeeeep!
4. if anyone really is reading this crap clue me in !

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